Movies at 2 in the morning, be careful.!

Okay,

do you ever ask yourself, "what am I doing.?" Its like your screaming at yourself from inside your mind.?

It is 2 30 in the morning, and I am up asking myself.. that very question, again.! Its funny that a movie I just watched simply popped this question into my head. If you need sleep, this wouldn't be a good time to just pop in a movie. You never know what will happen after. Anyways,

I see people, and sometimes I come across people who have deeply submerged themselves into everything that weakens the heart possible.! I ask myself why, why in the world, how in the world do people find themselves in great sorrow all the time.? Do we really not see what is coming when we make certain decisions.? Are we really not strong enough.? Do we continuously, so to speak, walk with our heads down not seeing what we are getting ourselves into.!!? Yes, yes we do, and no, we are not strong enough.!! We are not strong enough to overcome this world by ourselves.! WHY.? Because it wasn't meant to be that way, for us.! We, people of this generation do not have the liberty to think that everything will be okay when we as people choose to make every wrong decision possible.! The next "thing" will not satisfy our souls and diminish our sorrows. It won't be okay when we make some of the choices we make. Life is so beautiful, but we choose to walk with our heads down, not seeing what God has created as beauty.. and we walk straight into the enemy's camp. Good job, bob.!

All this has got me to think, at 2 in the morning, that what I want to do in life is help people, not decide for people.. because that will be there choice, but for me, help people see what is beautiful. If I can consistently live an example of (there is more to life then just being alive) -and just expecting good days and bad days - , I would love to see that turn out to an inspiration for people to live for something greater.

I love what Matt Chandler said in one of his video blogs. He said, "I don't love Jesus because he makes my life better, but because Jesus is better than life!" Gosh, I'm so freaking selfish.!

That hit me home.!

.. and I could say so much more.

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Life Is A Story. By John Eldredge.

Life, you'll notice, is a story. Life doesn't come to us like a math problem. It comes to us the way that a story does, scene by scene. You wake up. What will happen next? You don't get to know - you have to enter in, take the journey as it comes. The sun might be shining. There might be a tornado outside. Your friends might call and invite you to go sailing. You might lose your job.

Life unfolds like a drama. Doesn't it? Each day has a beginning and an end. There are all sorts of characters, all sorts of settings. A year goes by like a chapter in a novel. Sometimes it seems like a tragedy. Sometimes like a comedy. Most of it feels like a soap opera. Whatever happens, it's a story through and through.

"All of life is a story," Madeleine L'Engle reminds us. This is helpful to know. When it comes to figuring out this life you're living, you'd do well to know the rest of the story.

You come home one night to find that your car has been totaled. Now, all you know is that you loaned it for a couple of hours to your teenage daughter, and now here it is, all smashed up. Isn't the first thing out of your mouth, "What happened?" In other words, "Tell me the story."

Somebody has some explaining to do, and that can be done only in hearing the tale they have to tell. Careful now - you might jump to the wrong conclusion. Doesn't it make a difference to know that she wasn't speeding, that in fact the other car ran a red light? It changes the way you feel about the whole thing. Thank God, she's all right.

Truth be told, you need to know the rest of the story if you want to understand just about anything in life. Love affairs, lay- offs, the collapse of empires, your child's day at school - none of it makes sense without a story.

The Book (Epic)

hm...

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What a rad past couple of weeks...

Team Conway & Team GLR (greater little rock)

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Love

The Beginning of a New Year.

What to think.?

Family is in town. You don't know how good that feels. It was the longest I've been away, but such a cool experience. And to see them, and to surprise them made my heart race; the anticipation of their travel to get here was so great.! I couldn't wait to surprise them at their location. ( :

4 days of this chapter left, and it hasn't really hit me till today. I'm graduating the first year of the true realization that... there is more to life. Actually putting all things to action; finding God in intimacy. Its a graduation to an orientation of the next season. A lot going through my mind... a lot to think about. But for right now, reflecting and seeing my family is a beautiful thing.

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a challenge..

Awww.... ECO.! in the rain. This is going to be a fun week. Pray for us, there are going to be some bumpy roads ahead.

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Home, and still traveling. ...

HOME.!

Okay, I've been home for about a week from today, well will be a week tomorrow. Had a little break and then headed off to Clayton, North Carolina. Thats where I am now, working at the ARC conference at C3 church. I love it. Getting together with other 24/7's and big internships around the country and hearing amazing speakers speak such truth. There is so much opportunity in the air. But I tell you what, 24/7 is such an awesome program.! And I don't say that because I'm in I feel that I have to protect it, and now I have this sense of pride about it, but just the true rawness of it. The fact of the matter is, I am truly blessed to be here in this season of my life.

Well, I know I'm skipping like a whole month of life in Africa. I do have a little to write about that. I will share, but right now I'm in the now... and God is opening up my eyes and bringing down His love, which he always is but I'm just receiving it, and I'm loving every second of it. The good and the bad. I'll write soon...

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