creatively strategic

I Love the art of God. I capitalize "love" because I really am blown away by the way God orchestrates things into lives of individual people and to all humanity as a whole. Nothing is an accident.. it is all creatively, strategically put together. - accept for this muffin that I am eating right now. The way I thought it would taste is not what I thought. I've been waiting for the fall to come around and actually get cold so that I can eat this Pumpkin Cream Cheese Muffin. I think my hopes and expectations were up so high that I ruined the ingredients to it's taste. ha! - I can ruin so much!

In my life at the moment is very exciting. Meeting all these new people.. conversing with people that I have once met and now back in my life for very odd and cool reasons. I simply love it! All at the same time I am very aware of the battle that is still at hand. The physical war's in our lives may be coming to an end, but the spiritual battle is at it's high. I was talking with a good friend of mine yesterday evening.. and he blurted out the thought that he had. "Why can't the battle we fight be an epic physical fight!" He expressed his passion and anger to why it's not, and I just loved that our hearts connect in so many ways. But we came down to, is the fact that God didn't create it that way because He knows the battle is only won with Him. No strategy man can make up is good enough, and if it was a battle that we could see with our eyes we would think we understand it all and try to attempt victory on our own. NO! Not going to happen. The battle is between the spiritual realms, not flesh and blood. Then as he was speaking I thought of something God laid on my heart a couple days ago. "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and mind!" I thought that is the perfect strategy! Where man fails to become victorious is when he lives out that scripture backwards. It is not love God with your mind first, it's your heart. Like I said, with God there are no accidents. He is very creative and strategic. Since the battle in not flesh and blood, and the strategy is not some form of flank or over the top explosions on the battle field... the strategy is to ABIDE. Abide in God and He will abide in you. How we do so... "Love the Lord your God will all your 1. heart 2. soul 3. mind.


Love life, but Love God more!

fin.

I get frustrated at things in life, yes, it is true. Some things may rub me wrong, but there aren't really many true things that really frustrate me. The thing that I will say that can get me frustrated, is when I feel limited to my creativity because of my inadequacy. It's hard to write, it frustrates me so much. Ideas start in the mind... uprooted from your heart. Then the manifestation of those brilliant ideas are so wonderful if you can get them out of your mind and into your hands.
... I have been playing music for six years, and I have not written one song! That frustrates me... to the point I don't want to talk! Its not that I haven't tried or am I just too lazy to... it's just that I have tried and tried.. and tried again, but nothing comes out. I am so amazed by those who can put pieces together and create something from their heart. I love hearing my sister play and write incredible music! This kills me, because I love music! I just wish I could write my own. "I love life and it's broad possibilities, allowing me to search out creativity that no one has yet to encounter." I thought that the other day... Life is that way! ... because God has so uniquely placed hidden talents in us for us to find, which lead to creativity so brilliant the stars will sing! I'm not going to doubt, but maybe I'm just trying to hard. Maybe I keep letting my emotions get the best of me.
.. Tomorrow is a new day.

fin.

p.s. I'm in a weird mood, but what also frustrates me, is when I keep miss spelling words! ha... not really, but true.

sometimes getting peoples faces in pictures are not so important.
hm...






fin.

Romania

Dear Everyone I know,

It has been a while since I have written you all, so I hope all is well and that life has been great to your needs! I am doing well, ready to embark on my next event. Saturday, March 20th, we will be leaving to Romania for about 3 weeks. This mission has been on our minds for past 7 months, and we are excited that it has finally come to the point where we will be leaving to succeed in the steps God has for us. My heart is europe, and to be going there with the people that I have been training with to succeed in a common goal is awesome to me. I am looking forward to being with the people and living a little bit of life with them. We usually go to places no one else goes, so I know this mission will not be waist, not one bit. We have been praying fervently and working very hard to be as affective as possible. God has already gone before us and has prepared the way.

If I can ask, please continue to pray for us and pray for the people of Romania, that would be awesome. We are really looking forward to this, lives are going to be changed! Our lives are going to be changed! There are thousands of orphaned children and many Gypsy's who are living in the most non-humane places that need the love of Christ. We are to be the hands and feet of Christ!

So, here we go! Be with us on this mission. Thank you so much for your time in taking the time to read this! Be blessed beyond a measure!

August

(fin)

Movies at 2 in the morning, be careful.!

Okay,

do you ever ask yourself, "what am I doing.?" Its like your screaming at yourself from inside your mind.?

It is 2 30 in the morning, and I am up asking myself.. that very question, again.! Its funny that a movie I just watched simply popped this question into my head. If you need sleep, this wouldn't be a good time to just pop in a movie. You never know what will happen after. Anyways,

I see people, and sometimes I come across people who have deeply submerged themselves into everything that weakens the heart possible.! I ask myself why, why in the world, how in the world do people find themselves in great sorrow all the time.? Do we really not see what is coming when we make certain decisions.? Are we really not strong enough.? Do we continuously, so to speak, walk with our heads down not seeing what we are getting ourselves into.!!? Yes, yes we do, and no, we are not strong enough.!! We are not strong enough to overcome this world by ourselves.! WHY.? Because it wasn't meant to be that way, for us.! We, people of this generation do not have the liberty to think that everything will be okay when we as people choose to make every wrong decision possible.! The next "thing" will not satisfy our souls and diminish our sorrows. It won't be okay when we make some of the choices we make. Life is so beautiful, but we choose to walk with our heads down, not seeing what God has created as beauty.. and we walk straight into the enemy's camp. Good job, bob.!

All this has got me to think, at 2 in the morning, that what I want to do in life is help people, not decide for people.. because that will be there choice, but for me, help people see what is beautiful. If I can consistently live an example of (there is more to life then just being alive) -and just expecting good days and bad days - , I would love to see that turn out to an inspiration for people to live for something greater.

I love what Matt Chandler said in one of his video blogs. He said, "I don't love Jesus because he makes my life better, but because Jesus is better than life!" Gosh, I'm so freaking selfish.!

That hit me home.!

.. and I could say so much more.

Fin .

Life Is A Story. By John Eldredge.

Life, you'll notice, is a story. Life doesn't come to us like a math problem. It comes to us the way that a story does, scene by scene. You wake up. What will happen next? You don't get to know - you have to enter in, take the journey as it comes. The sun might be shining. There might be a tornado outside. Your friends might call and invite you to go sailing. You might lose your job.

Life unfolds like a drama. Doesn't it? Each day has a beginning and an end. There are all sorts of characters, all sorts of settings. A year goes by like a chapter in a novel. Sometimes it seems like a tragedy. Sometimes like a comedy. Most of it feels like a soap opera. Whatever happens, it's a story through and through.

"All of life is a story," Madeleine L'Engle reminds us. This is helpful to know. When it comes to figuring out this life you're living, you'd do well to know the rest of the story.

You come home one night to find that your car has been totaled. Now, all you know is that you loaned it for a couple of hours to your teenage daughter, and now here it is, all smashed up. Isn't the first thing out of your mouth, "What happened?" In other words, "Tell me the story."

Somebody has some explaining to do, and that can be done only in hearing the tale they have to tell. Careful now - you might jump to the wrong conclusion. Doesn't it make a difference to know that she wasn't speeding, that in fact the other car ran a red light? It changes the way you feel about the whole thing. Thank God, she's all right.

Truth be told, you need to know the rest of the story if you want to understand just about anything in life. Love affairs, lay- offs, the collapse of empires, your child's day at school - none of it makes sense without a story.

The Book (Epic)

hm...

Fin ::.

What a rad past couple of weeks...

Team Conway & Team GLR (greater little rock)

Fin ::.

Love